It has long been since my heart has had to wander, whether
due to feelings of happiness or out of sheer neglect that my journey still
exists. Once again I find myself on a path. That is what brings me to write
down these traveled steps.
People often discuss what it would be like to be in the
world alone. What if the world ends tomorrow? What if everyone disappeared and
you are all that is left? However, in reality, are we not already in the world
alone? Our journey is not traveled by anyone else. It is a life of solitude
filled with decisions that bring us to or separate us from other people.
We, in ourselves, are our own world. You are Earth. Within us lies our own gravitational pull that
exists between the logic of the mind and the desires of the heart. The heart
and the mind make use rise and fall like the day and night. Our seasons change
based on which one is in control of our inner planet. The heart can bring the
solitude and coldness of winter or the long warm days of summer. The mind can
bring about sudden change and action like the burst of flowers in the spring or
the beautiful turning of the leaving of fall. Although we are inhabited alone
in our own planet, we are not alone in this universe. It is our soul that connects us to other people
like a solar system.
Unlike the selfishness of the heart and mind, the soul
revolves around a particular type of happiness that connects us to other
people, other planets. The heart and mind of an individual has their own
climate, their own moon, their own gravity, but yet an individual will still
circle the same bright sun of the soul as you; pulled into the same life search
of happiness and contentment.
(What about when you have not yet learned happiness? Then you
are but only a shooting star. Flying through solar systems to get a peek of
what is out there. Not yet able to decide which sun to make your home. At this
point in your journey in life, you are a beautiful glance, reminding planets
that there is life outside of what makes them happy, but you can also be
destructive if you come too close, threatening the existence of what has so
masterfully grown into maturity and inner stability. Take caution to continue
on your path of the balance between your heart and your mind but do not collide
with the planets that are living for continued growth and prosperity.)
The human universe is built with many suns that support the
lives of those who revolve around them. My own personal sun is large but is solely
made of what is beautiful. It consists of a pursuit of the moments in life that
my heart and mind are still and can become lost together in the simplistic yet intrinsic
moments that occur organically. It is a sun made of nature and all of its glory;
the quietness of the woods, the depth of a clear starry night, the challenge of
the mountains, or the rush of a wave crashing to shore. It is a sun made out of
sharing; the excited glance in someone’s eyes when they look at you to see if
you just experienced the same wonderful thing they did, the laughter and love
when discussing events of the past, the warmth in the touch of someone who
wants to let you know you are loved, or looking at those you have known for
years to see more beauty in them today, even after they have been worn from the
battles of life. It is a sun made out of appreciation for art whether a pouring
of written or spoken word, a complicated composition of melody and harmony, or a
brush of color capturing a perception of the eye. For art is the opening of one’s
heart to the world, it is allowing other worlds to peek inside your own without
shame of judgment or ridicule. My sun, my soul, is a made out of the depths of all
of the beauty humanity and nature can offer.
There are many people who revolve around the same soul that
has snared my planet, but there are many people who find their soul pulled to
solar systems drastically different from my own. It is finding what makes you
happy and what sun you should revolve around where you can truly begin building
life within yourself. To lose the tail of a shooting star and to find a sun
fitting your planet is the moment when your world of one becomes a solar system
of many. It is then that you begin to look beyond your own horizon and start to
notice other planets that are visible in your night sky and realize you may be
alone within yourself, but you are never alone within the universe.
