At the news of a friend passing, I immediately went into grief mode. The tears flowed, my heart hurt and anger crept in. As the tears continued, thoughts of him and his wonderful soul took over the anger and questions that first went through my mind.
I looked online for an appropriate proverb to encompass my emotions and found many sad, sorrowful sayings that were fitting for my mood. Then I stumbled across a proverb that says,
"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." These words struck my inner most emotion. Why does one really weep in moment of intense sorrow? It is for the loss of the moments of happiness we've experienced in life. Knowing those moments have ended and life has forced a sudden change on us that we did not want.
This true is for any grievance of the heart, whether it is a loss of a friend, the ending of a dear relationship or a change that causes us to abandon the path we loved, like losing a job or moving from a hometown. The tears are not actually shed for any future possibility. Life will continue to move forward and new relationships, adventures and possibilities will continue to fill our hearts with gladness. Our pain is for the past. The memories of what were and the beauty in the moments we've lived.
Drying my eyes, I began to smile at the thought of his kind eyes, boyish grin and deep soulful conversations. The moments of grief will continue to creep in my mind in waves, but there is also celebration of who he was as a person. The joy he brought to everyone he knew. Thoughts to hold onto as sweet as the moments when they were lived.
I will continue to mourn the loss of things in life that end, but a new light on my sadness has beamed in my heart. I will combat my grief with joy and remember the "delight" that was once a part of my life.
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